Monday, July 18, 2011
Please help. Anyone. I have been struggling with my faith/religion, and it is causing stress in my marriage.?
Ok, so I don't know if any one will reply because this is literally a book, and I'm sorry for that and thank you in advance for any one taking the time to read it. I have a beautiful 5 year old boy, a husband who cares about us, but, we both come from different religious backgrounds, and to add a twist, we only have a civil ceremony, which makes my husbands parents happy, but not mine so much. I have been catholic all my life and my parents are very strict catholics especially my mom, on the other hand my husband's parents are Jehovah witnesses. I am an incredibly open person even though I have been brought in a very catholic family. I have never thought anything bad of my husbands parents, they are wonderful people, especially my mother in law. I can also say the same about my parents. I'm not going to lie, both of our families have had our share of difficulties in our lives. But, with all that said, now my husband and I are going through something I don't know how to solve. There was a time in my life probably about a half a year ago where I technically lost my faith, and for a person who has always believed in God that is kind of difficult, I did not want that to be happening, I did not know what was happening and I hated that time of my life. I have not been regularly going to church for a maybe 6 years. But a couple of months ago something was just really bothering me about that, so I started going again, not every week, but more then usual. Now I can say that I am in church almost every week. So I went to confession a few days ago, and it felt wonderful I cried and I cried during the confession I don't really know why, and I found out that there is a few ways that I can fix my 'sin' which I am living without a church wedding. But now, after doing loads of research, and actually the research started along time ago because of my confusion and suffering faith I am not so sure what is right to do. So let me explain. I never believed my husband when he said "you know that Jesus wasn't really born December 25 don't you." I hated when he said that. So I guess that is true, as I found out from doing more research, I have yet to actually get to that part in the Bible which I am slowly reading, because I figured, I have to find the answers I am looking for. How come the church doesn't let us know about that? is there more that I don't know about? and is there really a point to me arguing with my husband and making him feel like crap for not going to church with me, when now I am not even sure if it is the right way, just like I was always worried about my mom and what she thinks, I know that my husband is afraid of hurting his mom, since she is a Jehovah witness. I still enjoy going and leave inspired each time, but I wish that the church would be more truthful. Now I am in a bad place in my marriage, and with my husband, even though we love each other very much. Is there a way that we can resolve this?? how? Are we really living in sin? Does the bible state you need a church wedding? Again I have yet to find that out, I am slowly but eagerly reading the bible. I want everyone to be happy, my son most of all, my husband and me. I have been arguing with my husband for the past few days now, and I feel awful, because I realized that I am forcing him to do something that in his heart he feels is not right, now I am not so sure either. I think that I will go ahead with the solution with the one side wanting to sanctify the marriage and go from there, as I found out that that is possible, but is there a better way or is this the right way, I know that whatever we do we won't be able to make everyone happy, but the most important is to make God happy, and that is what I truly want, with my whole heart. So, I don't know if all this babble of mine makes sense but I am really confused. WHat do we do, help please. Appreciate any answers advice, thoughts...
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